Friday, August 20, 2010

I Don't Think I Am Big

In yesterday's post I mentioned that the wind blowing the dress I was wearing made me look a bit bigger than I really am. One of my polish friends asked if I thought I was big in her comments. The answer is a big fat NOOOO! :) But the comment stayed with me all day.  She didn't say it in a rude way, she wasn't mean AT ALL. It was a totally innocent comment. But I thought about that and how my comment could be seen by some that I think i'm big or fat or whatever you want to call it. As a mother of three daughters I think it is important that I send a positive message and I don't ever want to put a message out there that makes it appear that I think girls need to be super skinny. So I wanted to take the opportunity to offer my opinion of myself and women's sizes in general. Remember this is just my opinion, I hope I don't offend anyone and I would love to hear your opinions too.

As far as size goes, I think I am skinny. Maybe not according to everyone, but I see a skinny girl when I look in the mirror. I don't weigh myself, but when I go to the doctor's they weigh me and the last time I went I weighed in at 124 lbs. I am about 5'3" - 5'4". I wear a size 4 - 7 depending on how much I spend on the clothes. It seems the more I spend the smaller my size. The size on a tag means absolutely nothing to me. I have clothes that say XS and clothes that says L. I don't care as long as it fits. 

My body is not perfect, I still have issues with my body. I am at a weight where I eat a mainly healthy diet, but over all I eat what I want. I don't work out like I should, even though I want to. I wish I was more toned, my boobs are fake (Hey someone had to put them back to their pre-baby glory!), and my stomach is a little flabby that no amount of sit ups will cure and has so many stretch marks it could double as a map. (I would get a tummy tuck if I could.) But clothed, I think it looks pretty darn good if I do say so myself. I love my body clothed. Not so much in a bikini. But hey we can't have it all can we? 

Now for how I feel about size in general. I think women of all sizes can be beautiful. I think how a woman carries herself and what she wears makes the body. I fully believe we are all made in different shapes and sizes and we should embrace what we have and stop comparing ourselves to each other and love who we are. Easier said than done. I know. There are certain times of the month when nothing fits and everything just makes me look puffy in all the wrong places. I get frustrated and wish I was taking better care of myself because I like how I look and if I don't do better, I won't get to stay looking the way I do. But for the most part I am happy with how I look and I wish more women were too. Skinny or big we can all look good. 

Speaking of someone who looks amazing and owns it. A friend turned me on to a blog by Erica Bunker. She is a size 14 - 16 (according to her sewing patterns) and she is GORGEOUS and I mean GORGEOUS!!! She sews her own clothes and her blog is about her sewing. I am in serious awe of her talent! This is a woman who is the size of most woman here in the U.S. and she looks amazing! This is what I mean that all women can be beautiful. If we all took the time to care about our appearance, then I think we could all be beautiful regardless of size. When I see a mom at the store wearing some unshaped t-shirt and ill fitting jeans and sneakers and her hair in a messy ponytail. I just want to grab her and give her a makeover.  I think we sometimes forget to take care of ourselves. 

Now with all that being said, I still think there are people out there that are too fat. There are people that for whatever reason have given up and just gained an insane amount of weight. These are the people I feel bad for. I wonder what made them give up. It makes me sad and it makes me angry when I see what some of these people have done to their children. I get so frustrated. I understand that there can be health conditions that can prevent someone from being thinner, but there is a difference between morbidly obese and a healthier weight. I wish these people the strength to find themselves and a way to be healthier. 

So there it is, all out in the open. My opinion on my size and everyone else's.  Probably way more than you wanted to know. I hope I didn't offend anyone, now let's all get off our bums and give ourselves a good stretch. But before you go let's get to another one of the Revlon Street Wear's that Andi from the VivaNails blog sent me. (Yup Andi - I just plugged your blog again!) This one is called Burnt. She actually sent me two called Burnt but they are totally different from each other. I fell in love with this one though. It is such a great grey olive color with shimmer. So cool! It was perfectly opaque in two coats. Now ignore my manicure skills. I apparently got this all over my cuticles, but ironically I didn't notice it at all until I saw the pictures. I almost didn't show these - but the color is just too amazing.
This is with a top coat.

           Here it is without a topcoat. Almost matte but not quite.    

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  1. Looking at the photos of you , you are by no means "big" or "fat" and you obviously know that. I think you have a great body! and it's hard to believe that you have had 3 kids with the body you have. Everyone has their own flaws that they don't like about themselves, but I am glad you are sticking up for woman of all sizes. I think that as long as you are happy with yourself and healthy, that is all that matters.

    I am sure that you set a great example for your girls :)

  2. @Danielle, Thanks. I can only attribute my size to my pre-kids size. I was 94 lbs the first time I got pregnant. I kept on the same 30 lbs or so since having kids that most women do. But for me I think I needed those 30 lbs, I love my curves. Now if I could just get rid of the road map stomach, I would look killer in a bikini! HA! A girl can dream....

  3. wow! you were so petite! I think the weight that you are at now is a lot healthier :)

  4. aww i think just love your body.. and it will love you back.. if you hate it.. sayiing ohh.. i'm too fat/thin/ etc.. you are not going to be happy no mater what..! there are 'bigger' people who love their body..and are right. etc and 'bigger' people who are not happy because they hate the body and damage it more.. and the same with 'thinner' people.. i think what matters most is being healthy, eating right, and loving yourself!