Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Can I just vent for a minute? I try to keep my blog as positive as possible, but let's be honest, everything's not butterfly's and rainbows all the time. I hate reading blogs where people are complaining, so I warn you, if you are like me - turn away now!

First I lost my good luck charm! I know, I know, it's crazy right? But I am bummed! Seriously, I could take losing my MacBook, but my good luck charm? NOOOOO!!!! I bought these Alex & Ani bracelets About a year ago and have worn the one with the good luck charm on it almost every day. When I need a little luck, I would rub the charm between my fingers. I know hard work and dedication are what works, but a little luck doesn't hurt right? Well the charm fell off my bracelet! Gone! I guess, on the plus side, someone walking around may come across the charm and who knows they may just need a little good luck themselves, so it will live a second life somewhere. But WAH! (Yes I am whining!) No fair! Truly bummed!



OK, so that isn't really the vent, the vent is my frustration with a headache that has decided to take residency in my head for the last month now. It seems to go away for a day here or there and then just comes right back. After 4 weeks of this I went to the doctors, who asked what is going on in my life. When I told her I work FT, started my own business which is also FT, have three kids, 2 dogs, a husband etc... She honed in on the business. "SO what do you do?" she asked. I responded "Well I do HR FT during the day, and I started my own nail polish line which pretty much takes the rest of my time." And then she hit me with the question I always get from people when they find out. "REALLY!! WOW that's so interesting!! So what makes you different from OPI?" Which I take as OPI is perfect, what the heck are you thinking? LOL. I need to fine tune an answer to this one. I love OPI, but hey, they aren't a Cult are they? LOL! ANYWAY once she heard my situation, nothing else mattered. She simply told me "Oh honey - it's stress! Nothing is going to get rid of that headache until you relax!" WHAT?!? Seriously? Ugh I know I'm stressed, but come on! I was actually OK with it. SO there is no magic to get rid of the headache, but when later that week I found out from a friend that in order to diagnose it as stress and rule everything else out, I should have gotten an MRI, my Cortisol levels checked and some blood work done. Yes stress can actually be diagnosed with tests! So as I sit here typing with another major headache that makes me want to cry, I wonder - can I have my good luck back please and should I go back for a second opinion or am I being a hypocondriac?


20 comments:

  1. Hey!! You really need to relax a bit, sometimes we can be sooo overworked we dont realise. Take a deep breath, take some time out each day just for yourself, go on a walk and u'll be fine. Hmmm..about losing the good luck charm..suppose that maybe somebody needed it more than you did...so its doing it work there!! while we cheer u up! :)

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  2. If it's really bugging you I'd say better safe than sorry. Go get a second opinion. You don't want the stress of not knowing to add to your existing stress. Also, maybe try to squeeze in some quick at home relaxation techniques (hot baths, good books, and some quiet downtime spent alone always do the trick for me) to see if that helps dissipate the pain at all. I hope you feel better soon!

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  3. Maria, I'm so sorry you aren't feeling well. It makes everything else in life harder to deal with when we are not in optimal health. You say it is crazy to worry about losing a good luck charm, but don't belittle your belief in its power. You filled the idea of that charm with positive thought to help you through times when you needed a little help. The power of positive thinking is very real, whether it takes the form of a good luck charm or anything else. Maybe one of your girls can help you find a replacement charm to add to the bracelet? Secondly, high levels of stress over a long period of time can lead to adrenal fatigue. You should have your cortisol and other hormone levels checked. Getting back to a balance in your health will help tremendously. Good luck! We believe in you! All of us Culties have got your back. :)

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  4. You are one of the most positive people I know, Maria - even your rant sounds positive! You have a lot on you so I would imagine that this lingering headache is stress related, even just stress on your body for working two full time jobs plus everything else. Might not be a bad idea to get a second opinion though! I can only imagine how hard it would be to schedule, but you need some downtime too. I'm so sorry you lost your charm! I hope you feel better soon.

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  5. Im not sure what your current diet situation is but start juicing, drink 2 liters of water a day and do some yoga. Sounds simple right? Lol

    Seriously, fresh juice will provide you with a ton of antioxidants and vitamins which will give you a ton of energy and yoga will provide you with some mind clearing, stress relieving meditation time! Adequate hydration will help flush toxins! And with everything in life, moderation is key...

    Good luck!

    Stress does awful things to the body as well as headaches.

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  6. That truly sucks I know how hard it is not only to lose something important to you but also being in pain while having to deal with everything else is harder than normal. I would go get a second opinion, especially since you've been in pain for such a long period of time. Then you'll know for sure about what's going on, you'll feel better about it too. Keep your chin up!

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  7. Check your diet. There's a lot of hidden sugar out there..reduce ur caffiene. I hope u feel better

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  8. When I see you in october I need to bring you a worry stone! Have you ever heard of those? If not, they are shiny, flat stones with perfect little "thumb print" indents so you can hold them perfectly And rub when you need comfort! They also have messages printed on them. Like LUCK for instance :) Maybe that could replace your lucky charm??

    About your headache, I am so so sorry. I know how terrible those can be. I get major ones when I'm feeling overwhelmed and worried about my classes for school. Yoga really does calm the mind, so maybe take at least one class and see if that helps. You could even come to a class with me if you want!

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  9. *hugs*

    Everything will work out. Hoping your day gets better and that your headache ceases.

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  10. I feel your pain on the headache front. And if you are concerned, if you are not someone who normally gets headaches, you might want to have the necessary tests, just to be on the safe side.

    I am sorry that you lost your good luck charm. Maybe you will find something special to replace it. :)

    Sometimes a nice vent fest helps, doesn't it? :D

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  11. Headaches are way not fun at all. I don't think (not a doctor, and I don't play one on tv) that you are a hypochondriac. Even if it is *just* stress (and it could very well be), there is more to helping ease stress headaches then just "relax". There are lots of meds a doctor can try out to help ease the headaches, including antidepressants, blood pressure medications, and anti-seizure medications. Not that you're depressed at all, just that those can help balance out chemicals and such.

    I think I'd probably go for a second opinion from another doctor if mine was so cavalier about serious headaches, to be on the safe side. You may not need all the testing BUT there is a whole lot to be said for taking your pain more seriously. Maybe (if you can squeeze in the time) keeping a headache diary would help as well - there could be food or other triggers besides stress.

    Whoa, I'ma shut up about headaches now, I'm getting all carried away. I hope you can find a wonderful good luck charm to replace your lost one. I love your way of thinking that maybe somebody else needed it. I hope your head gets to feeling better soon.

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  12. I literally feel your pain. I suffer from migraines and cluster headaches, and they suck the life (and fun) out of your day. I totally jinxed myself by saying to my husband last week, "hey, it's been over a month and no headaches!". What did I wake up to yesterday? A dull, nagging one that progressively got worse throughout the day. I thought I had figured out my "trigger" (chocolate, gasp!!) and taking it out of my diet did seem to help, but not eradicate them completely. We can't get rid of all of the stress in our lives, so what are we to do? :) I hope you find some relief soon. It is so hard to explain to others (read- my husband) what it is really like to suffer from headaches...I think he has had only 2 in his entire life! XoXo

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  13. Sorry to hear you're not doing well. I get migraines frequently and I know how they can literally ruin everything.

    You should go back for a second opinion.

    Also, I think your nail polish is better than OPI :)
    Your colors are more interesting, the formula is better and the bottles are prettier!

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  14. You should go back! It's better safe than sorry, always. Headaches are the worst because there is no way to escape or ignore them; they just eat at you. I don't know a solution, but you should definitely not let yourself get too stressed as stress can really affect your health in a negative way. And we need you healthy to keep making pretties for us! Haha. ;)

    I really hope you feel better soon. I'm a little surprised that your doctor didn't even offer you more testing if you wanted it, even for peace of mind. That doesn't seem right to me.

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  15. You need a second opinion (and an MRI). You've been having this headache for a month, but your stressful life didn't just start a month ago! You've had the husband, kids, business, and FT job for a while now without having a continuous headache! You are probably fine, but please be on the safe side and rule out anything major! Be your own advocate!

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  16. Girl! Get back there and get the tests done. That is all. Sure, stress and chemicals and all that...but be SAFE...be as sure as you can. ((((HUGS))))

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  17. http://www.bachflower.com/Rescue_Remedy.htm
    Try rescue remedy. They sell it @ whole foods. It's a homeopathic stress relief. It's amazing. I am by nature an anxious person, and this works better than alcohol! Lol.
    I hope you feel better!

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  18. Get a second opinion. Then a third, or how ever many you need. Getting a medical condition properly diagnosed can take many doctors and many visits and be so frustrating you'll wind up in tears and want to give up. It's a terrible truth, but along with that comes the fact that once you find out what's causing the issue, you can begin to resolve it. If the answer you got wasn't satisfactory and you felt like you weren't taken seriously, go find someone who makes you feel confident. It's your health and you need to feel good about it.

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  19. I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. I hope you get to feeling better soon! I say get a second opinion just to be safe. ;) I'm sorry you lost your charm, maybe you could find a similar one or maybe it will find its way back to you? Fell better soon doll. :)

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  20. It may not help you, but it's worth a shot and surely won't hurt you... Try Magnesium supplements for stress headaches. 400 mgs daily. Life with headaches really sucks and I know what you are going through, having been hospitalized several times for severe headaches myself. Hang in there and love the blog and Polish!

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