I always said if I became a burden to those around me due to health or an accident I wouldn't want to live. I still feel that way, but how do you transfer that to your pet? We have a dog who is turning 13 this year. That's 91 in dog years. She has arthritis so bad that she is constantly shaking. She is deaf and going blind and has no control of her bladder anymore. She is up all night crying. Not barking - crying. We put a gate on the bathroom door and made a little home for her in the bathroom for the night time, and she hates it. She has never been kenneled, so this is pure torture for her. She doesn't understand why she has to stay in the bathroom all night. We put a gate in the door and leave the door open, I just imagine how scary it would be for her if the door was shut with her in it. I think about getting her a kennel, but for a dog who has never been in one, I can't imagine that this would be better than the bathroom for her, but I still wonder. We just can't leave her out at night or when we are not home anymore though, because our carpets, couch, pillows or anywhere else she chooses to lay would be ruined, she really just can't hold it anymore.
We brought her to the vet and after several tests, the best that they can tell us is that she has doggie Alzheimer's, but that it could be diabetes insipidis which would be ridiculously expensive to treat (according the vet) or it could be that she has a brain tumor or injury. Running tests for either of these things would be extremely expensive (again according to the vet - we haven't actually gotten the cost yet but we are going to get it today hopefully). The vet recommended putting her on a certain medication that would rule out one of these things based on whether it works or not. It would take several months before we would know if it works or not. If it doesn't we can move on to the more expensive medicine for the other option. Or we could fork over tons of cash and have test after test run until we figure out what is wrong with her and go from there.
I just don't know what to do. Part of me thinks she has lived a good life and is probably miserable and it is time. But the other part of me thinks of those good days where she seems like her former puppy self. I think that she isn't "sick" that we know of and if it is Diabetes is that a reason to put her down? But at the same time, are Juan and I suppose to stay up all night with her and let her continue waking the kids all night with her crying. Her crying is loud and intermixed with the occasional barking and it is impossible to sleep at night. I feel so dizzy and nauseous from the exhaustion in the mornings. What are we supposed to do?
I guess I am just here putting my feelings in writing, hoping that an answer pops out of all this. But it still isn't any more clear. I'm torn. What is best for her? I wish she could just tell me what she wants.